Pappa Ledig !

Well my blog about Oskars time at home with me went good,until my father died suddenly,spoke to him on the Monday,died on the Tuesday,flew in to Scotland on the Wednesday,saw his body on the Thursday,took his body to the the church and www there for his cremation on the friday:'( the bombshell that my father died,I was blown away,and it still hurts to this day that my dad got to babble with Oskar on the phone,was looking forward to meeting him at christmas,but sadly died in the August before Selfish as it seems..I was hurting,it was pain express..my joy of being home with my boy,my first born ,was affected,I missed my dad so much,cried to sleep a few times,and waited on the hurt getting easier...it did get easier..but I miss him so much,just happy that we went to Scotland the year after to get married,and Oskar got to meet my mum and family,but now we have Klara Agnes Sinnett,..so mum,stay healthy for gods sake...she's grown so much and so fast..she's nearly 10 months old,and its a total blurr to me and Helena,I feel bad that I spend a lot of my time,while at home,"Oskar,stop that,don't do this,cut it out"..my heart bleeds thinking..am I failing Oskar now by not giving him a bit more space and freedom to let off some steam,I don't want him hurt physically,but am I over compensating fo the mentally ? Hey he's my first child,I'm no expert.. But I hope to try write about Oskar and Klara during this paternity leave..hope I clear my hurdles,hope I dont fail myself,Children and my darling wife,I hope to report on day outings,funny stories and lots of pics and video clips,..I may switch to Swedish sometimes..so just Google translate..or look at the pics..I love my children,my wife and my family and freinds,here in Sweden and Scotland and England...I hope you enjoy and are not afraid to tell me I did good or did wrong..mum stay healthy and my blog will be ok ;-)